Anuradha Bhowmik

60 MILLIGRAMS

banana slices cut

with a plastic knife

spread on a paper plate

beside a spoon of Nutella

and two Milanos 

she chews hears the saliva 

smack in her mouth 

gags polish-chipped nails 

peel clammy palm clasps 

three extended-release 

amphetamine capsules

white-flaked lips part

crinkly curls crumble

rice paper cratered skin 

and hollow nicotine eyes 

swallowed whole 

with Muscle Milk Light

for faster absorption

12 to 14 hour half-life

smooth uptake 

without the withdrawal

two hours till she forgets 

her appetite taps the scale 

and sets to zero 

steps on 125 and 5’5” 

fingernails dig 

into the protruding 

curve of collarbone

tremble like EKG lines

pulse spiking teeth 

grinding from the uppers


Anuradha Bhowmik is a Bangladeshi-American poet and writer from South Jersey. She is an MFA candidate in poetry at Virginia Tech. She graduated with a B.A. in Women’s & Gender Studies from the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill in 2015. Anuradha has been awarded a Grin City Collective Emerging Artist Residency, as well as scholarships to the New York State Summer Writers Institute and the Fine Arts Work Center in Provincetown. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in The Boiler, Lunch Ticket, After the Pause, Star 82 Review, Lumen, Pithead Chapel, and elsewhere.

 

 


Posted on July 24, 2015 .